Techno Grove Entrance i hope you felt at home


x garden secrets
  1. sunday scaries not being on sunday makes it feel worse
  2. doing your laundry and cleaning out your car is actually really important but somehow im still on the couch paralized into thinking about aformentioned sunday scaries
  3. being best dressed is best (self) impress
  4. make sure olives are in your martinis
  5. im getting older and i have nothing to prove myself with
  6. whining about being lonely isnt going to make you less lonely
  7. being uncomfortable is sometimes (a lot of the time) the price of community friendship


x angel-less insight
I'm for sure not going to burst at the seams the moment I wake, that would be lame and melodramatic. I would never do that to you, to me, to them. Im waiting on a tride true way to say that I'm okay and mean it. Truly Mean It. Ill find my own path and Ill be able to finally escape. Find somewhere I belong. It may be the last thing i ever will do and for that reason im scared. It all feels so simple and so complicated. whether its my daily life or thinking about the future. All of it is a freaky dialectic of complicated feelings.

Missing how I could have been if i had the resources younger in my life. The friendships that have ended, or even the friendships that started. I feel forever inescaped by reflection paralysis. Do you feel that way? Do you feel forever burdoned by the weight of the past, future, and the neglect of the only plane we exist in? I do.

x techno kiss overlord - daily diary
10.30.25
Today I have been finding solace in my routine. Simple and boring but true. I feel a lot of the times I have been overwhelmed by impending events, to-do, and future tripping. Not for the faint of heart. I'm hoping for peace in that I can feel whole and complete in more ways than just mental. Thursdays are my days to visit my family and I will do just that. Finding joy in them is something that I have been successful at; however, when I look into their eyes I always feel as if I want to give them more. I want them to feel and find success, love, hope, etc.. I found that as I get older these things are harder to come by and it causes me to grieve and weep for my family. Never being able to understand why they face hardship because if I could I would will it away.
x current repeated tracks
  1. Love Me Not - Ravyn Lenae
  2. Hearts that Run - Cowgirl Clue
  3. I'm Cold - The Cure
  4. Heavy Metal Lover - Lady Gaga
  5. Body Godly - YULLOLA
  6. Big Time Sensuality - Bjork

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